Thursday, 16 May 2019

The Caterpillar

Today’s story for mental health awareness week is entitled The Caterpillar - because we all have mental health.
The Caterpillar


Eric the caterpillar was munching his way through a leaf. It was a very tasty leaf too. He didn’t think much whilst he munched away. He did however appreciate the flavour and textures of the leaf as he bit into it and munched it into a pulp to be easily digested in his little stomach. He gave thanks to the tree for its gift as he moved onto the next leaf. On the journey to the next leaf he just noticed how weary his legs felt and wished that the leaves were nearer together. He perked up when he got to the next leaf as he again enjoyed the flavours and textures in his mouth. His weariness returned when it was time to move towards the next leaf. He felt the effort of lifting each of his 16 legs in unison and collaboration with each other. He wished there was a better way of living. One that had more opportunity for eating the leaves he loved and less of the boring tedious and useless trek in between.

Eric had heard stories of having to move from one tree to another and spent much time dreading that happening to him. The stories had many endings – some happy and others sad. However, for Eric the common thread of all the stories was the great effort required to achieve the goal. To him it felt like too much effort just to eat another leaf or two. He couldn’t understand why any caterpillar would ever want to do such a thing. He was thinking about this happening to him when he realised that he could neither move forward nor back. He tried to move each of his legs in turn. Each seemed to be stuck. He pulled, he pushed, he fought, he shouted out with frustration. None of this seemed to work. He tried again and again, and he was still stuck. He sat quietly thinking that if he conserved his energy that in a few hours he might be able to make a break for it. For that reason, he closed his eyes and went to sleep. A few hours later when he woke, he was reminded of his predicament when he realised he could not move. He took a deep breath in and with every ounce of his being on his out breath he pulled, he pushed, he struggled. But he was still stuck. He wondered if he needed a longer sleep, and, therefore, once again he closed his eyes and went to sleep. This time he slept for many hours. Eric’s dreams were strange and, if his legs allowed him, he’d have been tossing and turning in his sleep.


On waking Eric tried do move and again was reminded of his situation when not one of his legs budged from the spot. He did consider another sleep but thought he might try another strategy before closing his eyes again. He could see other caterpillars nearby and shouted to them to help him. They didn’t seem to hear him and just continued munching their leaves. He shouted louder and still he got no response. He shouted until he was hoarse and still he had no response. He felt sure they could hear him. Especially when he remembered the times when other caterpillars had had similar difficulties and he’d ignored them. He had been too busy munching the leaves, and anyway he always thought some other caterpillar would go to their aid. Not one caterpillar came to help him.  He really didn’t know what to do. He slept some more, he pulled, he pushed, he struggled, and he screamed. Nothing seemed to work, and he remained stuck to the spot.

Finally, as struggling and shouting hadn’t worked, Eric looked around him. He started to explore more fully the situation he was in. He even relaxed realising his struggling was futile. Taking each leg in turn he looked at what was holding them. He had never seen anything like it before. Each leg was entwined with a very fine silver silk. As he looked around him, he realised he was within a web of this fine silk. A web which stretched far into the distance. He even noticed other creatures stuck in the web. He also realised that the more they struggled and the more they strained the tighter the silk pulled around them and the less likely they were to be able to get away.

Looking further afield gave Eric something to do. He started to notice other creatures and the world around him. He noticed the colours, the movements and heard the sounds from all around. He also started to realise that he might never get free and started to reflect on his life. He did remember the good times, including the really scrumptious leaves he’d eaten. He also remembered the times he regretted his actions. The times he’d ignored others' calls for help. He also realised he could be a bit of a grump some of the time. Even when eating the scrumptious leaves, he’d find something to complain about. If the complaining wasn’t directed at the outside world, then he managed to find things about himself to complain about. He was too lazy, too fat, too slow. Wasn’t he now realising he was too selfish. After many days he realised that he wasn’t all that bad. He had remembered all the good things about himself. He remembered his positivity, enthusiasm and sense of fun. He remembered his dedication to finding the perfect leaf and the gratitude he had for the trees for their gifts.

At the end of a very tiring day, where Eric had managed a whole day accepting his perfection, he slipped into a very deep sleep. He slept very soundly and very long. On waking he was very surprised and a little frightened about what he found. Had he died he wondered? Because he felt different – he felt different inside and felt different on the outside too. He certainly looked very different. That was why he thought he’d died because he no longer looked like the 16-legged Eric that he had been before he went to sleep. Something miraculous had happened. Because he had two huge beautiful wings of rainbow colours and no longer seemed to be tied to the web of silk.  

Slowly he felt within himself to every part of his being. He felt very different and yet it certainly felt like him. Slowly he imagined moving one of the beautiful wings and he was shocked to see the wing on his right move ever so gently. He wondered what would happen next and then suddenly he felt a slight breeze and was terrified as it lifted him away from the web and into the air. Having realised from before that if he struggled it usually made the situation worse, he relaxed into his new body. He allowed the wind to carry him and even experimented with moving his wings. He found by moving them he could alter the direction he was going. He also found that his eyes no longer just saw the green leaves; now he could see the colourful flowers all around. 


As he landed on his first red flower he realised how much fun he was going to have with his new body. He realised that as a caterpillar he had really thought his life was over and that he was going to end his days caught in the fine web of silk – but that had only been the means to his wonderful new body and life. He realised he could release his old ways and really make a difference in the world by visiting as many flowers as he could and really seeing and enjoying the world around him. He didn’t know what would come next but made a promise to himself to just enjoy where he was at that moment in time and worry about the future one day a time.

Alison Smith
Landscaping Your Life

Previous stories shared so far this week have included; The Right Path, The Wave, and The Stone.

My first Landscaping Your Life book, Can't see the wood for the trees, has been described by one reader on Amazon as "first aid kit for the brain". To find out more about the book see this post- you can buy it from all online stockists all listed here.

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